Frivolous At Heart

This is as common of an issue in any relationship. I know that in the beginning, the gf is very uncomfortable with this issue and she still is. So long as she doesn’t hear about it or know about it, she’s fine but if she gets wind of it, she’ll feel uncomfortable and I can understand that. Last thing I want to do is to make the gf uncomfortable and have concerns. You just don’t want to do that to a person you love. Subtract that out of all relationships if you love the person.

So about a month ago, she told me that she can’t prevent people from having an interest in her. That was a “told you so” factor. So I assumed someone has keen interest of her. If anyone is in any type of a relationship, you know that other people will take keen interest in your mate and that is inevitable- something out of your control. What is controllable are the facts that she can control her fate and outcome of this newly sprung interest(s). How he or she handles this type of scenario all depends on how faithful they are to their mate.

Looking at the gf’s scenario, she’s told me countless of times that she can simply quell trying times such as these in a way to let the advancer know that she is uninterested in a stern manner. You can only let your mate do such parry to offset the balance between what’s black and white. To keep things simple, don’t let things out of hand i.e. don’t extend your friendship into a [could be] blooming relationship. It’s okay to have friends but it’s not okay to be friends with someone who has interests in you (just think of how you would feel if the roles were switched). You should be fending these outliers with wit and etiquette yet subtle and ferocious tenderness. This act is reciprocal. This is an act of commitment.

I beg to differ but I was one without worries of these situations. What would only make me worry is for the fact that I have mistreatd my significant other. Think of it this way… If you don’t listen to your mate, they’ll find someone else whom will listen to them. No matter how boring or uninterested you are, always bear mind to give an ear or two. The fact is, if I was mistreated, I would look elsewhere from whom will treat me with more compassion. Even a dog knows when its ill treated and will jump the fence for greener pastures. We are better than dogs I suppose.

I have no idea who likes her but I know someone does. It doesn’t bother me but what bothers me is if she doesn’t try to avoid it. Go figure, who wouldn’t be bothered? She once said, “why would I look at other women when I have her to look at everyday” and in a sense, if I did look at other women with slivery tactful eyes, hell would decends upon me like black on white. She’s right of course, I don’t need other women to look at, just her would be sufficient. She will have many other men who will have interest in her even during marriage if you want to take it that far and all I can do is trust in her judgement for my own sanity.

This is only an assumption and I won’t press this issue on her. She’ll press it on me though but thats her being her and I don’t blame her womenly intuitions one bit. If she decides to tell me about it, she will in time. If not, than I’m perfectly content as well. This would only show how much she values my views of her ordeal and the trust that she has in me.

I was wrong today because I didn’t put the gf’s feelings first. I’m such a coarse person that I sometimes forget whats important around me. The way I am, I’m coarse with everyone because of my brutal honesty. I could have put things in more subtle terms- something that wont hurt her feelings and that would make a point. I meant every word of it but I should have been nice about it. I forget sometimes and It may sound perfectly logical yet it really is too coarse.

I do apologize for my swift and thoughtless remarks. It does make me feel bad that I hurt her feelings. Today was totally my fault and I felt like an ass. No one’s pointing fingers but obviously, the finger is towards me straight in the face. I make my points on the expense of other peoples feelings and thats perfectly okay by me. Just not towards the gf. I’m forgetful and I won’t do that anymore. She’s not just anyone else but someone I love and I should be a little more careful and put thought into what I say before any repercussion from her.

I hate that face that I’m right yet wrong; conveying a message with such coarseness is rude on my part. I will be more assertive the next time ’round. I only hope that she doesn’t get more angry towards me. I noticed subtle changes in her mood when she’s angry and I don’t like it. It’s not her fault she’s that way; she is because of me and that in turn makes me feel bad. To have her smile and be happy is something I enjoy.

Well the mum asked a few to go. It would be just her, my sister and myself. I was ready this morning and my sister came to check up on her. She said she didn’t want to go anymore. Ranting about how not everyone is going that she asked and that we are going to arrive late. We are always late for every occasion at church anyhow.

It’s okay. Best next year and try not to arrive late I guess =) It’s a nice Sunday morning. Lots of work to do around the house. I like working around the house anyways. Before all that fun, we decided we are going to go get some breakfast. Got to get the boogers ready! More weight added to my already fat frame yeah!

I was contemplating on how I should piece together a bumble bee for my nephew. His class requires that he builds a bumble bee from scratch. Other students are assigned different animals of course. I originally was going to cut mine out from the wood lathe but decided that would be too much work. I went to Michaels and purchased a swan egg and two round spheres. Went home and cut them to add a marginal degree to the bumble bee’s body. Worked out great and the shape was just right!

I of course, did all the “dangerous” work because my nephew can’t use my mitering saw, my drill, and my staple gun. He helped with the other “stuff” to piece together this project and I have to say, he was quite unhelpful- okay, I was a hog. He really couldn’t do anything but glue stuff and cut shapes out for me which is more than enough of assistance I could use of him.

Tomorrow, I, excuse me, “we” need to make wings for the bee and finish up the project. I need a fine metal brush to brush the felt to make it more fuzzy and puffy. I’ll have to figure something out tomorrow. Then after fruition, we would need to school my nephew on bumble bees and etc. Wouldn’t want the teacher to pull a quick one on him!

The spool gun is discontinued and in order to weld aluminum, you would need to purchase another spool gun for another Lincoln machine and buy the proper modules to run it. I said the hell with it and mated mine with the Lincoln K2532-1 Magnum 100SG Spool Gun designed for the Lincoln 140-180.

Works well might I add. I need to buy a new four pin female adapter so I can rid myself of the wire splices. I wonder what part # that is! My welder is ancient yet works sooooo damn smooth I’m loving it! I will not spend 1500USD on a damn spool gun that I’ll rarely use occasionally. The Gun is rated up to 180amps and I run it at 100% duty cycle at those numbers all day without problems.

I’m in the process of making a panel saw for my personal use. I hate having to drive down to my buddies place to cut some ply. The drive to and fro waste a lot of valuable time. I need to get this project done within a week before school starts back up again! I don’t want to buy one because it’s either too expensive or either too expensive.

I just started noticing that the steel stock I purchased months ago, aren’t actually all straight. Some bend a little at the end- wonder if I can bend them back? I had 24′ of 1.25X1.25″ tube that was straight and I used it to create my frame. More to come!

UPDATE 05/03/08

I drew out my dimensions for my sliding bracket(SB). The SB is 16″x16″x.25″ aluminum plate.

I had to rough cut it and I tried to leave 1/8 edge so I can go over it with my router. That is the first time I’ve ever used a router on aluminum and I made a few miscalculations here and there but it came out great!

I came back with my router and routed the edges to make it look symmetrical and purdy.

I have mounted the saw I’m going to use for my panel saw as a mock up. Doesn’t it look great? I love how it’s coming out! the SB looks great!

UPDATE: 05/07/08

I finally was able to take a photo of the frame. Here is the frame=) I hope the bottom piece is flush. If it isn’t, I’ll have to buy 3″x.5″x10′ to square it up. I hate to grind the welds!

This is the pulley that will help counter-balance the saw.

These are my wheels to move it around. I still have not made the support brackets for the frame; thus, it leans on whatever is behind it.

UPDATE: 05/08/08

I installed the wheels today and they work great!

I had to add more bracing in the back- O the wonders of designing and making your own projects are that you find so many defects that you must overcome! I’m adding horizontal bracing in the back for more support and to make the surface more plumb and even. I have never thought of this until I actually came across it. Now there’s something new to add to my pool of knowledge.

UPDATE: 05/17/08

I took a 2″x4″x10′ and ran it in a planer to take it down to 1.25″x4″x10′. Time consuming and lots of saw dust to collect and clean up.

Once that was done, It was then mated to the panel saw frame.

I finally installed the slider face plate.

Committed.

“I love thee without rhyme nor with reason
I love thee without memory or feign acceptance
I love thee without remorse nor treason.
I love thee blindly for cause and perception.”

I love thee whether thee loves me or not. I love thee in merry times and the difficult hour. I choose to love thee because it is the human expression of joy and humility. I mutter those three overly used words without question nor without levy.

Yup. That’s a promise. Smooth sailing from now on. Wish I had a photo every single day like before. I never need a thank you nor acknowledgment but apparently some people do which is fine because I can give that. I’m usually the “understood” guy when it comes to thank yous and acknowledgments. Pretty straight and humble.

I know a lot of people whom complain, “Why I did that and this and not even a thank you out of them. How ungrateful”. Never understood that concept. Than again, I’m pretty strange so I look at things a lot differently than others. I need no closure. It’s understood.

Ever had to carry lumber or pipes 12 foot long? I had to today. The max length I have ever carried was around 10ft. Even at that length, I thought it was quite long. Today I went down to the metal shop and they had on sale 1.25″ square tubing and I had to pick some up. I’m a cheap shopper and invest in the long run and usually purchase metal that are outside vs the ones inside which are twice as much. Metal inside are rust free and come at a premium price but makes no difference for what I do anywho.

The ones outside are pretty much rust free if you come and get it in time. They sell quite quickly so you must be avid about your metal deals and not have a mind set on what you want- just work with what you have (at a discounted price =)). I usually like to stock up on metal material because I never know when the next time I’ll need it. This time I did. I wanted an extender to tie down and support my material as I transport to-and-fro. I have tailored it to my exact needs thus it was a solid piece welded to an already existing hitch drawbar (towbar).

The next time when I go purchase wood or metal goods, I’ll use my homemade HDE (I’m renaming that stupid name (Extend-A-Truck)). It will now be known as the Hitch Drawbar Extender.

This is my drawbar that I don’t use as often as I should. I sacrificed it for the betterment of ME=) I had to cut the drawbar and the angle that resulted from the cut was perfect (seemed like it was meant to be).

Yes, I hung off of it like a little monekey while testing it. The tongue weight (TW) for my hitch is around 500lbs but I would imagine having the HDE would decrease my TW capacity;however, I don’t think I’ll ever exceed the capacity to make any minor issues major.

Yes, that is one 12ft square tubing in the back for testing an photo purposes.

The whole project cost me less than 6dollars in material + sweat vs buying one for $100+. Granted the ones you buy are universal fittment but mine is just tailored for towards my vehicle. Works well enough for me that I don’t really care for an aftermarket HDE. I’ll buy another drawbar the next time I need it.

Time is relevant. Infinite is not a numeral and yet it is time multiplied to infinity. I could picture myself forever being in a place without time. Time would warp around us, you and I. Utter bliss, you and I. Forever.